かなしばり the choking spirit.

1月13日

The weather has been pretty gloomy lately and last night was no exception.  Oahu had a flash flood warning with thunder and lightening prevalent around the island.  Around 11:50 last night there was a huge BOOM resulting in a shaking house and a power outage.  Aside from the rain hitting the roof of the house and the occasional bark from my dog….everything went silent. It was quite peaceful to be honest with you.  Unfortunately, I was still wide awake but since there wasn’t anything to do I decided to crash.

It’s not often that you remember your dreams in vivid detail but when I woke up this morning I remembered most of what I dreamt last night.  The funny thing is that they don’t really connect, they sorta just jump from scenario to scenario or scene to scene….kinda like that movie “Inception.”

The first thing I remember is being outside in the rain near Ala Moana at night.  It is late and there is no traffic around.  The weather was like last night so there was just rain and silence. A girl has a flat tire and I tell her to stay in the car while I change her tire for her.  My dream self was thinking that it was a good thing she had a small car otherwise I don’t think I could jack up the car with her in it.  All the while, when the tire was being changed I felt like I was also standing from a short distance away watching myself change the tire.  Once I was done I followed her to Sears Tire Center to get a replacement tire and then I was on my way.

What’s weird is each time in every scenario, I saw myself from afar while at the same time, remembering the event has it happened to me.  So I had 2 point-of-views, the 1st and 3rd.

From the Sears scene I appear at night on a  beach.  I don’t know what beach this is but I am in the sand and kneeling before a girl. It is the same girl that I just helped change her flat tire.  I remember that it’s cold and windy but the moon shines brightly.  I take a ring from my pocket and ask her to marry me, and she says yes. I watch myself from a few feet away take a paper from my pocket and draw a heart with her and my name in it.  I add a date and in parenthesis I write “she said yes!” I roll up this paper and put it in a glass bottle and cork it.  Finally, I throw the bottle into the ocean and watch it float off in the moonlight.

In the next scene, I am in a home. It’s probably mine and it looks like my wife and I have just returned from a night out.  But something is different, there is a little child since we are in his bedroom. I see us talking to him but strangely he is talking in Japanese and this is odd since I don’t speak Japanese.  Aside from the 2nd me watching myself….there is also an eerie feeling of a something or someone else watching both the 1st and 3rd person me.  The room goes black.

I am on a couch in a dark room. I no longer feel the sense of the 3rd person me watching myself.  I drift to sleep…I wake up and staring at me is a very large head.  I don’t know what to make of this.  The size of the head reminds me of Yubaba from the movie “Spirited Away.”

Yubaba.

However the face is red….the eyes are large but pure black.  It stares over me, not making a sound.  It just peers into my eyes.  I try to scream and yell but I can’t. It is Kanashibari.  Kanashibari (かなしばり) is described by the Japanese as an intense and frightening experience after waking from a deep sleep.  When the sleeper opens his eyes and tries to get up out of bed, they realize they are unable to move.  They can’t move their limbs and they also cannot scream as their larynx is also frozen. That’s when the sleeper comes to the realization of the presence of a Kanashibari spirit over him/her.  In other folklore, they are commonly also known as the choking spirit, old hag phenomenon or incubi.

Kanashibari.

I finally am able to whisper or dream that I whispered “mom” and the spirit releases me.  I gasp for air and turn to my side…but instead of fear this enrages me and I throw an elbow out and up at the spirit but it’s no longer there.  That’s when I look at the clock and it’s now 5:47am in the morning.  The weirder thing….the lights and power suddenly surge on as if it were some uncanny coincidence.

If you have read this far, I will say to you that this actually happened to me last night, it’s not just some made up story.  I’m writing it here to document what transpired in the events that followed the blackout.  I don’t know what to make of that face but as I think about it, it reminded me of a Japanese Oni or demon.  One that I saw when I visited Japan back in 2007.

Oni. Japanese Demon.

Strangely enough, today’s date is the 13th.  But again, rather then a feeling of fear, whatever that thing was…all it did was piss me off.  I was hoping my elbow would catch it in the jaw.  My only question is why the house call?  I guess it could be described as just a dream but it’s not often dreams try to suffocate you….and it wasn’t like I was lying on my stomach either, I was lying on my back.  Don’t ask me about the girl….cause I don’t know.  I know who she is but why I was asking her to marry me?  Hmph, I’m not married nor have I ever asked anyone to marry me.  Haha who knows maybe she’s my future wife 😛

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2 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by Tadasauce on January 13, 2011 at 10:56 pm

    Thats crazy… cute you call out for your mom. “MOMMY… HELP ME!” I gotta say my encounter was similar, i didnt see any faces tho however there was an overwhelming presence of something. It was a couple years back I remember the wind virtually came to a stand still, everything got quiet then all of a sudden a pressing weight that pushed me deep into the bed I couldnt move I couldnt scream then just when I thought I was done for it let go, the ambient noise came back to normal and the breeze started blowing outside again.

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